PROMDRESS/SHOES/NAILS!!

i want a jumper like this one :)

TO SEE MY PROM DRESS CLICK: HERE.

TO SEE THE SHOES CLICK: HERE.

THE PICTURES ARE REALLY BAD SORRY. I really wish i could show you what the dress ACTUALLY looks like cause i'ts amazing. also, you cant really see the shoes with the dress on, but you'll be able to see them when i wear this floral dress i'm changing into before we go clubbing :) i cant wait i'm seriously soooo excited. i'm painting my nails a light coral pink, and the round bits near the base of my nails will be black :) heeheeh. I'll try to post pictures once i get them done! :) i cant wait! btw who thinks i should have a banner for my blog? anyway i hope you all are having a great, great, fun-filled week. OH ALSO EXCITING IS THAT i started my cfa (fire fighting) training today! i got to hold a fire-fighting hose and spray it and hang out with the hot fire fighters :) yummy! mwa! xxxx.

I do not understand guitar hero. :(

hi party people! (special hello's to my new followers!) whats up. :) i just got back from a house party in this massive, massive house that had a bunny rabbit hopping around. was pretty cool, but i fell asleep and when i woke up people were playing guitar hero and talking about placentas. ew. it was a really weird party, but the music was crap so like, yeah. and boyfie wasnt there, ew. anyway, i PROMISE i will post pictures of my formal dress as soon as i find the cord for my cameraaa :) dress is not that great but i love love love it. my shoes are death on heels. :D i hope your weekends are fantasticly amazingly super super duper awesome! xxxx.

Bad Luck is my new Best Friend.

sorry i havent posted lately, bad luck is following me everywhere, and today i feel like crap. boyfriends house and watch movies and be fat this afternoon. till he gets home, i'm sweeping, vaccuuming and mopping the whole house. and re-arranging my room. and putting on new bedsheets. and putting a new feature thing in my room. taking down the photos, corkboards etc. i've realised that i'm sacrificing a lot lately. sleep is one, but another that is killing me, is for example, that i'm not going to my formal (prom) so that i can use the money to go to a church thing - so i've spent the last day or so detaching myself from my emotions.

btw LOL, my dog is freaking out at the thunder storm on right now, she's on my lap shaking like a leaf. if she was a child i'd tell her it's God getting was cause she killed those birds. LOL i'm going to be a terrible parent. hahahah. anyway, eye candy always makes me feel better so i hope you people will too :)

xxxx.

This is not my jam.

went to an 18th last night. twas a massive house party and e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e was there :) didnt go to church today, and i totally should have! if i had woken up i wouldve gone, as i never pass up the opportunity to see him in a suit lol :) i hope you are having a lovely weekend :) it's still raining.

delicious ambiguity

nothing's happened so far today. i just woke up with a headache because i fell asleep with my head on my phone. i wasnt talking on it or anything, it just ended up there. i think because i miss my boyfriend, i wanted to text him last night to tell him to come over in the morning, but i fell asleep. i'm kind of glad i did though, because if i had texted him and he didnt come, i wouldve been shattered. i miss him. i'll probably see him tonight. there's a church dance, only thing is that if he doesnt go, i'll end up going with this guy he hates who's my friend (i dont really like him either). awkward. the drive in was amazing, twilight was amazing: but taylor lautner is so much more than beyond amazing. have you seeen his body?! hello! i'm just glad my boyfriend didnt go last night to see me drool all over myself for this guy. LOL! honestly though, last night would have been so much better with him there. :( I MISS HIM, and yes i said it again. and for those wondering why the fuck i talk about my boyfriend so much is because he's so much so a part of my life that when he's not there for a while it freaks me out. he actually told me that he plans to marry me this one time we were at the hairdresser and i was looking at a bridal magazine. but he has shit to do first. it's complicated. also, and more importantly - he's my best friend. i can tell him everything (doesnt mean i do, remember i'm an incredibly emotionally closed off person).

the thing is though - i think i'm falling out of love with him and its scaring the hell out of me. hmm. i think i'm going to text my friend to tell her to text him and get him to do something awesome. like a summersault. :)

he is amazing, but he's just so damn stupid. nothing so far has happened today.

BTWOMFGWTFBBQFTW6OFOLLOWERSLOL.

btw, just a very special hello to all of my new (and dedicated) followers! :) you are all super duper cool, and if i had a chart for stars i would give a gold star to each of you ♥

omg my boyfriend & i are SO chummy, its rediculous.

HE TRICKED ME TODAY! said he wasnt coming

to my house after work lol! but then he did and

i ran outside and hugged him like i hadnt seen him

for ages, and then he picked me up,

took me inside, dropped me on the couch

and kissed me all over my face!

if i could write down the noise for that funny cat noise

that cats make when a little kid pulls their tail, i totally would.

just because grrrrr, just wouldnt be right. :(

HAHAHAHAHAH.

i'm very happy today. yaknow that song "everything is gay"

that that kid sings on youtube? with the guitar?

my life is kinda like that, but still it's awful!

becuase of some unknown reason

i feel terribly optimistic. :D

xxxx.

ice-cream sundae.

i just woke up! i feel sicckkk :(

i dont know what to wear to church today

or what to wear to my interviews for uni/tafe next year but i ate icecream for breakfast. mmm. :)

trust in _____.

my boyfriend was really upset today, it kind of disturbed me, because i realised how shut off i can be. he was upset because he says i open up to other people

more than him and he doesnt know wha

to do anymore :( it was soo sweet but it was

also really really sadddd :(

on a positive note

I'M FREE!

FREE, I TELL YOU! FREEEEE!!!!

did my last exam today, & naaailleeeddd it!

and also the exam lady said that she

had never seen anyone write as much as me

^__^ hooray!

anyway with the whole omgomg stress thing

with not knowing what to do career-wise

i've decided i'm going to let God, fate or whatever it is

that decides your circumstances decide for me

and i'm just gonna live everyday like whatever :)

and i'm going to trust my boyfriend more

and talk to him because i didnt realize it upset him that much

which will be hard cause talking-out feelings

isnt exactly a skill i possess. i might write letters

to my boyfriend every now and then or something

LOL

should be good, although i dont

know how long i'll last.

hope you are all wonderful, happy and beautiful

(on the inside).

xxxx.

friends.

are awesome. no joke.

i hope you are working to live

and not living to work :)

xxxx.

i got upset today.

he held me like so:

and made sure i was okay :) i think that im starting to realize the meaning

behind the saying that happiness isnt real if it isnt shared with someone

you love ♥ church was good also: its helping with the whole priorities situation.

cant wait for beach tomorrow, how i love summer (& how i hate mosquitoes!!!)

what are you up to this week? ♥ link me to your posts please, i would very much like to read, to do some catching up :)

BEACHED AS BRO.

HERRO :) as you may know, the weather here is fucked. it will rain in the afternoon, thunderstorm at night and be like 30 degrees the next day (celcius) AND, thanks to the big fat hole in the o-zone layer our UV exposure is worse than all of youse other guys (so blerh!!) summer's pretty much officially here (even though its still technically spring so yesterday we hit the beach and spent most of the day eating icecream and at the beach with tyron ♥ which was cute we went to watch a movie at a friends, got bored so we (about 25 of us) walked down

to the beach at about 9pm & it was beautiful. tyron was being all romantic, and we were like swimming in the water but like i was on his lap and he was swaying back and forth :) and i was like "we need music!" and he's like "just listen to the ocean :)" and i was all like awwww, but secretly laughing inside and tyron and i stayed behind and decided it would be fun to go swimming naked and it totally was! but anyways, hope your weekends were awesome as was mine. :) hitting the beach again tomorrow with the sole purpose of tanning :) because i am latin american (i.e. dark?!) but right now, my boyfriend who is half islander, half white australian is darker than me. and i'm not happy about it. LOLLL happy blogging!

xxxx.

YOU MAKE ME SO MAD!!

but then again, so does everything else.

i (do not) feel fan-fucking-tastic.

as you may be able to tell,

my head is all over the place right now.

i'm pissed off to the max,

and i am also crazy!

*throws arms in the air*

HALLA-BA-LOO!!! :D

i need a job.

i need a job.

i need a job.

i need a job.

why?

JOB = PAY

PAY = MONEY

MONEY = RENT

RENT = NEW HOME.

ALL OF THIS = FREEDOM FROM OPRESSION. :)

hooray.

i hope your life

is better than mine was today.

i fell backwards at the front door,

i was trying to lift up my boyfriend

how he lifts me up when i'm upset

and he wants to make me feel better.

was shit cause it hurt

but it was kinda cute i guess.

so anyway now my elbow hurts.

and i think its bedtime right about now.

xxxx.

p.s. that guy up top is the finest damn thing i ever did see in all my years.

all of mine, well.. they all seem to

somehow come back to me. :\

i've decided to be hopelessly in love with my boyfriend.

it's taken a while to admit that i'm IN love with him

(as opposed to just loving him) but, i think i was just scared.

i suppose it's like that sometimes :)

happy blogging everybody :)

thirty followers, sitting in a tree! K-I-S-S-I-N-G! ♥

well, i did get the break i was looking for, i guess it just wasnt in the most unexpected of ways.

i got a massive headache earlier

and it turned out to be some weird thing

and i couldnt talk or breathe or move or walk or see,

so nyeewww off i went inne ambuience all the way to the hospital :)

so i've just come back from spending the past 10 hours in the hospital. my boyfriend came, again, he was lovely. didnt help that he rocked up in a suit, looking the sexiest i've ever seen him ever ever in my life. ♥ but it motivated me to want to come home and eat. i was hungry because i threw up everything i ate this year LOL thanks for the comments&subscriptions btw. i made it to 30 today :) it was a lovely suprise :D oh and btw, i'm okay :D xxxx.

THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL.

i think i need a break. not from anything specific though,

except for maybe my pesimistic attitude that i seem to have adopted over the past couple of days. ♥

its hard to be optimistic sometimes, but i think once you

re-focus, and think of nothing else BUT your priorities

optimism catches up on you. and i hope it does :)

although, right now it's all curiosity's fault.

if it wasn't for you my friend, i wouldnt be so caught up in the:

OMG WHO AM I. WHAT AM I GOING TO BE? AM I GOING TO BE POOR OR RICH, WHO WILL WANT TO MARRY ME, ARE THESE THE BEST OF MY YEARS?! WHY THE HELL IS THIS THE WAY IT IS? WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO STUDY? WHY IS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE THAT? WHY ARE MY THIGHS SO BIG? WHY CANT I BE LIKE HER? WHY ISNT MY HAIR GROWING FASTER?? Kind of shit.

you suck.

thanks for your comments, you are lovely.

xxxx.

life is insane.

mmm/bh.

i am terrified.

im just glad i have you.

i am so confused. i have no idea what's going on. i feel like every part of me wants to go in different directions, and i dont know what to think anymore. i feel like i need to be somewhere else, but the parts of my heart that accomodate the people who are precious want me to stay right where i am. even though i'm not moving, i feel like my heart has left me. it hurts.

NYEH NYEH NYEH NYEH NYEH.

hobogestapo.

omg my boyfriends mum is soooo whiney!

just listening to her makes me want to shoot her

in the head(with a marshmallow gun)!

just to make her confused so she

shuts up for a while; geeeeeeeeeeeeeez!

& i know i'm not being understanding at all

but ..errghh. i have period pain. yeah that's right!

REALLY BAD PERIOD PAIN.

and it effing hurts so tyron's mum can suck it.

(i'm sure period pain measures upto the pain of labor & childbirth,

but whatever, call me selfish :P)

but seriously i've spent the morning on the couch

in tracksuit pants and no bra watching documentries about

dead people, while hugging a hot waterbottle and drinking

what's probably ended up to be like 12 cups of tea.

and now i'm out of tea. :(

and it probably didnt help that last night

on the way home i payed $6.50 for noodle box

that i got all excited about and then as soon as

i got home, i hurled. and didnt stop until bedtime.

eugh! what a waste of money.

oh, and my boyfriend (asshole!) replied to my "omg noodlebox sucks! i've

been vomiting for like an hour!" text message in the morning

with: "i left my library card in your electricity box on the way

to work this morning. mind popping over to the library and borrowing

[some gay book about shit stuff] for me?" at a library that's half an hour

away from my house! i'm his girlfriend not his wife!

above all, PMS is making things 10 times as hard as they should be.

chocolate soup

anyway, how are you all? whats news, whats not!

what have you bought, tell me everything :)

i charity shopped and bought a really cuteblack

pencil skirt for like six bucks, so cute!

btw my interview went reeeeeeeeeeeeealllyyywell :)

it went for like an hour of just me & the

director just talking about random stuff, was so good,

and i was so proud, but now i really want to work there!

now i'm just scared that i would've gotten my hopes up

and like now its like "omg i so know that i'm not going to

end up working there because of how much

i really want to work there" i hate the way life

works like that it's so sucky!

btw i was thinking about the girls hair in the last post

and chloe, you're so right, it would be really high maintainance!!

but still, i hope that she gets gum right in the top

and she has to shave it all off. stupid cow,

(clearly, i am still disturbingly jealous)

hugs, kisses and big long sloppy licks across your faces!

hahahahahah grosseee! (i know you'd love it!)

xxxx.

kissy kissy :)

fridayi'minlove.

haha! so the new rule in the boyfriend's house (coming home straight after work) ..totally FAILED. he came home to me last night!

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! >:) whuaha!! stupid mrs. lady, i'm like two up now, how marvellous.

i've also decided that my boyfriend and i

shall visit the zoo (: to see the long nosed chinese animal i forget what they're called, but get this i rememeber exactly where they are in the zoo. weirdddddd.

i'm sooo nervous about the interview today and i have another one tomorrow i dont think i want to go though! errrkk! and my nails are painted black they might think i'm emo ewwwwwwwwwwwwWwWwww.

(meliencuarto-fran)

btw FUCK i am so fucking jealous of this chicks hair she should have a god damn lisence for this 'do look at it its so fucking gorgeous what the hell it makes me angry looking at it because my hair is unfortunately not identical to hers. grr. btw i keep sneezing how annoying.

i hope your days are lovely ♥

xxxx.