WENT BEACH AND GOT A TAN TAN TAN TAN TAN & MY HAIR IS NOW BEACH CURLY :) I'M WRECKED AS - HENCE I CAN ONLY BE STUFFED DESCRIBING MY DAY IN SINGLE WORDS SO HERE GOES: (ahem,) EAT, MINGLE, SING, JAM, JUMP, SPLASH, CLIMB, JUMP, SPLASH, CLIMB, JUMP, SPLASH, DRINK, DRY, CHANGE, KISS, DRINK, FIGHT, KISS, DRINK, BUS, TRAIN, WAIT, INVITE, PARTY, TOMORROW, YEE-UH, CAR, COPPERS, LIGHTS, TROUBLE, FINE!!, TICKET, 11.59, CRAP, DRIVE, HOME, PARENTS, POPSICLE, BLOG. :) Oh, joy. ♥ AND BTW, I JUST GOT HOME AND WAS SUPPOSED TO BLOG EARLIER SO TECHNICALLY, I'M JUST GONNA SAY FUCK YOU TO TIME AND ALL THAT SHIT, THIS IS A FRIDAY POST MAAFUCKAAA. SORRY BTW I'M ON MY RAGS :) MUCH LOVE ESPECIALLY TO MY ONE NEW FOLLOWER SINCE I CHECKED THIS MORNING YOU ARE DA MAN (metaphorically) AND IF YOU WERE IN A CROWD AND I WAS ON A STAGE I WOULD POINT AT YOU AND SINGLE YOU OUT AND SING YOU A MELODY TO MAKE YOUR HEART FEEL LIKE THAT IT WAS THE ONLY HEART BEATING IN THE WHOLE CROWD. YEAH.

not dead, just very gone :D

hay hay hay! just thought i would post one more time before i leave for brisbane. i am officially leaving in just under an hour. i'm really sick at the moment, and i've lost my voice and i'm all grosse and whatever but i seriously do not care. i kind of dont want to leave because of me mum, but i think it'll be a good experience nevertheless :) i'll be back a week from new years, so i hope you all will enjoy the rest of your 2009, and enter twenty ten with smiles on your faces, food in your bellies, and perhaps even a boy (or a girl) on your arm (or your mouth). :D thanks for following and as soon as i get back i shall reveal ALL. freggin found my camera just in time aswell :D PHOTOGRAPHY POSTS HA-HA! lovelovelovelove. xxxx. oh and thanks in advance for any comments ♥ oh and if theres any posts you post that are MUST-READS, post the link in a comment and i'll look it up as soon as i can (i'm visising a friend in QLD, which means internet :DDDD hooray!) loveeeeeeeeee. xxxx.

i'm pretty sure i'm about to cut my own fringe. pray for me! the beach party's tonight and i can not wait, hopefully it will be awesome. the rest of the weekend shall be spontaneous because i have no idea what we're doing. plans for weekend anyone? btw lol i love this picture LOL. lol. LOL. bahah, lol. lolling. LOLlies. LOLLERSKATES lol. okay i should go cut my fringe.

DRAMA, GOSS AND LOVE.

okay so once upon a time, at the start of the year, the girls i was friends with at the time "dumped" me cause the guy they were all ga-ga over, and i had a thing at camp. to paint the picture, he's the most popular guy at school (in the literal sense), he's an athlete (killer bod), and girls will line up after he's done a performance to get a photo of him (a lot of the time he grabs me to be in photos with him, cute!) he played the piano and sang to me (all my life - kci & jojo), he has an a-m-a-z-i-n-n-g voice, and we did a duet at the talent night and cuddled at the movie night. we then became really close friends, but since its always been that awkward in-between kind of friends -- and yeah. any way, two weeks past and after the holidays the girls found out i had a boyfriend (same boyfriend i have now), who is half australian and half cookislander, (makes him hawt stuff!) and when i showed them pictures they simply were in shock. he used to play for the same rugby team as the group of boys this prettykid is the leader of, who are all islander and sexy as bro! anyway, then the bitchiness arrived and from there it was all down hill. SO, i was talking to this prettykid last night, turns out he needs a lift to the prom: which means i will rock up with two sexy boys in suits, to the formal in a brand new WRXSTI. in front of the girls who i used to be friends with. in a hot dress. just thought i'd share the goss ♥ hahahah. im soo effing excited. :) oh and also he's coming clubbing. :)

I do not understand guitar hero. :(

hi party people! (special hello's to my new followers!) whats up. :) i just got back from a house party in this massive, massive house that had a bunny rabbit hopping around. was pretty cool, but i fell asleep and when i woke up people were playing guitar hero and talking about placentas. ew. it was a really weird party, but the music was crap so like, yeah. and boyfie wasnt there, ew. anyway, i PROMISE i will post pictures of my formal dress as soon as i find the cord for my cameraaa :) dress is not that great but i love love love it. my shoes are death on heels. :D i hope your weekends are fantasticly amazingly super super duper awesome! xxxx.

This is not my jam.

went to an 18th last night. twas a massive house party and e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e was there :) didnt go to church today, and i totally should have! if i had woken up i wouldve gone, as i never pass up the opportunity to see him in a suit lol :) i hope you are having a lovely weekend :) it's still raining.

delicious ambiguity

nothing's happened so far today. i just woke up with a headache because i fell asleep with my head on my phone. i wasnt talking on it or anything, it just ended up there. i think because i miss my boyfriend, i wanted to text him last night to tell him to come over in the morning, but i fell asleep. i'm kind of glad i did though, because if i had texted him and he didnt come, i wouldve been shattered. i miss him. i'll probably see him tonight. there's a church dance, only thing is that if he doesnt go, i'll end up going with this guy he hates who's my friend (i dont really like him either). awkward. the drive in was amazing, twilight was amazing: but taylor lautner is so much more than beyond amazing. have you seeen his body?! hello! i'm just glad my boyfriend didnt go last night to see me drool all over myself for this guy. LOL! honestly though, last night would have been so much better with him there. :( I MISS HIM, and yes i said it again. and for those wondering why the fuck i talk about my boyfriend so much is because he's so much so a part of my life that when he's not there for a while it freaks me out. he actually told me that he plans to marry me this one time we were at the hairdresser and i was looking at a bridal magazine. but he has shit to do first. it's complicated. also, and more importantly - he's my best friend. i can tell him everything (doesnt mean i do, remember i'm an incredibly emotionally closed off person).

the thing is though - i think i'm falling out of love with him and its scaring the hell out of me. hmm. i think i'm going to text my friend to tell her to text him and get him to do something awesome. like a summersault. :)

he is amazing, but he's just so damn stupid. nothing so far has happened today.

BTWOMFGWTFBBQFTW6OFOLLOWERSLOL.

yo!

33/91 degrees today.

i had a shit morning, the shittest morning in a while. so i went shopping, and i bought 2 bras and 7 pairs of new undies. was happy until i burnt my hand on a 527 degree metal thing. it hurts so bad. stuff with my boyfriend is uncontrollably bad. its gotten to the point that i cant even talk about it because it just makes me really upset. its not even that bad, he just really has not stepped up at all. he's not cheating on me or anything but he's just like, let down after let down i was so upset today, and i asked him to come to mine after work because i desperately needed to talk to him. he didnt come. i called him after like 6 hours, because i couldnt stop crying. and i know no ones perfect but c'mon. take the conversation we had on the phone:

mee: (babbling on about how much my hand is in excrutiating pain).

*awkward silence*

him: um, okay. i need to get up early is there anything important you need to say?

i started crying and hung up. i continued to cry for a half hour or so. i've had a stressful week. month. four months. yep. four months. i know i'll be okay though. wannaknow why? i'm a ninja. 'nuff said. hope you're better than me.

trust in _____.

my boyfriend was really upset today, it kind of disturbed me, because i realised how shut off i can be. he was upset because he says i open up to other people

more than him and he doesnt know wha

to do anymore :( it was soo sweet but it was

also really really sadddd :(

on a positive note

I'M FREE!

FREE, I TELL YOU! FREEEEE!!!!

did my last exam today, & naaailleeeddd it!

and also the exam lady said that she

had never seen anyone write as much as me

^__^ hooray!

anyway with the whole omgomg stress thing

with not knowing what to do career-wise

i've decided i'm going to let God, fate or whatever it is

that decides your circumstances decide for me

and i'm just gonna live everyday like whatever :)

and i'm going to trust my boyfriend more

and talk to him because i didnt realize it upset him that much

which will be hard cause talking-out feelings

isnt exactly a skill i possess. i might write letters

to my boyfriend every now and then or something

LOL

should be good, although i dont

know how long i'll last.

hope you are all wonderful, happy and beautiful

(on the inside).

xxxx.

EFFYEAH!

tomorrow is my LAST exam ever for highschool

and i got applications and interviews

for teriary studies today, which made me feel

not-so-bad about being unproductive :)

i should really go study,

weird -- i actually WANT to! :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

xxxx.

not having a job is really depressing me.

seriously, my friend bought an outfit yesterday

and i came home and out of nowhere i started

crying like i've never cried before!

it was soooo weird but it was also because

my boyfriend kept asking what was wrong. i hate that!

I NEED A JOB AND I NEED MONEY.

i wanna buy clothes for me and random shit

for my boyfriend and presents at christmas

and op shop things and that! i even actually

want to pay tithing! or at least be able to! argh!

plus i want to get out of this f*cking house.

its driving me nuts. everything is!!

either way though i'm not emo or anything

i'm still happy for what i have, i just want a job.

& my hair is growing! yay!

its funny how things like clothes can depress you

i'm such an ungrateful bitch LOLOL

ohwell :) hope you are all well and lovely.

xxxx.

friends.

are awesome. no joke.

i hope you are working to live

and not living to work :)

xxxx.

i got upset today.

he held me like so:

and made sure i was okay :) i think that im starting to realize the meaning

behind the saying that happiness isnt real if it isnt shared with someone

you love ♥ church was good also: its helping with the whole priorities situation.

cant wait for beach tomorrow, how i love summer (& how i hate mosquitoes!!!)

what are you up to this week? ♥ link me to your posts please, i would very much like to read, to do some catching up :)

BEACHED AS BRO.

HERRO :) as you may know, the weather here is fucked. it will rain in the afternoon, thunderstorm at night and be like 30 degrees the next day (celcius) AND, thanks to the big fat hole in the o-zone layer our UV exposure is worse than all of youse other guys (so blerh!!) summer's pretty much officially here (even though its still technically spring so yesterday we hit the beach and spent most of the day eating icecream and at the beach with tyron ♥ which was cute we went to watch a movie at a friends, got bored so we (about 25 of us) walked down

to the beach at about 9pm & it was beautiful. tyron was being all romantic, and we were like swimming in the water but like i was on his lap and he was swaying back and forth :) and i was like "we need music!" and he's like "just listen to the ocean :)" and i was all like awwww, but secretly laughing inside and tyron and i stayed behind and decided it would be fun to go swimming naked and it totally was! but anyways, hope your weekends were awesome as was mine. :) hitting the beach again tomorrow with the sole purpose of tanning :) because i am latin american (i.e. dark?!) but right now, my boyfriend who is half islander, half white australian is darker than me. and i'm not happy about it. LOLLL happy blogging!

xxxx.

spoonful of sugar.

whi.

job interviews suck. just as much as life does for me right now. (brb) gone beach. *thumbs up.*

how was your weekend?

mine was exactly as follows:

my weekend was really overwhelming.

will explain tomorrow.

sorry for not posting much.

♥