help me, somebody!

happy ten months nancy & tyron! yay! LOL he came over this morning at like 6am to cuddle until 7am when he had to leave for work. nyaww. i am so happy (and delirious from not sleeping at all last night) that i may just bake a cake even though its going to be really hot today but tyron loves cake so what the heck. :) btw wow this is like my 3rd post in like 8 hours LOL anyways, i need help! because we have an 'alice in wonderland' themed dress up party to go to on friday and i dont know what to go as and what to get tyron to go as (queen of hearts and alice are already taken). i would go as tweedle-dee or tweedle-dum but i wouldnt wanna go like that WITH tyron cause that would just look wierd and we'd look like one of those indian couples that wear matching tracksuits (in my head). i guess i could go as anyone, but i just want a unique and awesome way to put it together. :) ideas? oh and also please remember i am poor. :) oh btw just out of curiosity, random question for anyone who comments this post, what countries are you guyses from? ta ta ta. oh, oh and also i totally promised you guys ages ago a picture of boyfriend so clicky here to see and here to see him in a suit. *prouddd* LOL alsoo, if i recall promised the recipe for the selfsaucing chocolate pudding i made for christmass, and i will post that with my next post :) sincere apologies for the delay fine ladies. hugs hugs and kisses ♥ xx.

girls.

okay so first i wanna say thanks you to the six girls who commented my last post. all of you told me exactly what i needed to hear, which leads me to this post and that i guess i want to highlight the difference between telling something to boys, and telling the same thing to a girl because i actually think its really interesting. like, guys generally have no idea what to say when we talk about, well, anything? and i moreso noticed this now that i've been dating tyron for 10 months (naw!) and like, í'll talk to him about something and he really has no idea what to say - even though he really wants to help he'll usually like, panic for a bit then do something to make me laugh. like today we were cuddling in his bed and i was upset because the father of this baby at church wont even recognise that it's his kid and i was upset because like how could you not want to have everything to do with this such a tiny, tiny bundle of perfect love and.. well whatever, and after he complained heaps because i wouldnt tell him what was wrong, i told him and he like, said nothing. and then i turned around and he had a green and silver battery sitting on his left eye and he robotically exclaimed "I AM TRITO-TON!" and cracked me up. guys are good at being guys. and how much they understand or comprehend what youre saying really doesnt reflect and has nothing to do with how much they love you or even if they love you or not. most of the time they genuinely just dont get it. ladies - dont expect to much of them. update your blog instead and let us girls deal with it. :)

WENT BEACH AND GOT A TAN TAN TAN TAN TAN & MY HAIR IS NOW BEACH CURLY :) I'M WRECKED AS - HENCE I CAN ONLY BE STUFFED DESCRIBING MY DAY IN SINGLE WORDS SO HERE GOES: (ahem,) EAT, MINGLE, SING, JAM, JUMP, SPLASH, CLIMB, JUMP, SPLASH, CLIMB, JUMP, SPLASH, DRINK, DRY, CHANGE, KISS, DRINK, FIGHT, KISS, DRINK, BUS, TRAIN, WAIT, INVITE, PARTY, TOMORROW, YEE-UH, CAR, COPPERS, LIGHTS, TROUBLE, FINE!!, TICKET, 11.59, CRAP, DRIVE, HOME, PARENTS, POPSICLE, BLOG. :) Oh, joy. ♥ AND BTW, I JUST GOT HOME AND WAS SUPPOSED TO BLOG EARLIER SO TECHNICALLY, I'M JUST GONNA SAY FUCK YOU TO TIME AND ALL THAT SHIT, THIS IS A FRIDAY POST MAAFUCKAAA. SORRY BTW I'M ON MY RAGS :) MUCH LOVE ESPECIALLY TO MY ONE NEW FOLLOWER SINCE I CHECKED THIS MORNING YOU ARE DA MAN (metaphorically) AND IF YOU WERE IN A CROWD AND I WAS ON A STAGE I WOULD POINT AT YOU AND SINGLE YOU OUT AND SING YOU A MELODY TO MAKE YOUR HEART FEEL LIKE THAT IT WAS THE ONLY HEART BEATING IN THE WHOLE CROWD. YEAH.

meepmeep.

ITS FUNNY HOW MUCH MORE YOU like LOVE ♥ SOMEONE WHEN THEY ARE ALMOST GONE. LIKE WHEN YOU CAN TOTALLY NOT BE IN THE MOOD TO MAKE OUT WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND CAUSE YOU HAVE YOUR PERIOD OR SOMESH*T, BUT AS SOON AS HE'S ABOUT TO LEAVE YOU GET THE SUDDEN URGE TO PUT YOUR LIP OVER HIS HEAD AND SWALLOW IT. :) TODAY, MY DOGGIDY DOG-DOG McDOG WAS SICK, BUT NOW SHE'S ALL BETTER, SO I'M SUPER RELIEVED. I'M happy CAUSE I BOUGHT A PLANNER :D HELLO DEAR FOLLOWERS OLD AND NEW (:

I can't believe that:

i ditched my high school graduation to chill and eat tim-tams with my boyfriend. i wore his socks today and we talked about shit like in 5 years and in 10 years what we would be doing. it was cute something was said about we could be lying in the exact same position that we were but in a totally different place. we also talked about kids and behavioral issues (lol) and stuff like how our relationship is like, maturing. kinda like beer. also, we were mucking around cleaning dishes and i hit him hard with a wooden spoon on his knuckes, he cracked it, and we had a fight and cried and shit but as always when i left neither of us wanted me to. it's sad but i must say that diagnosis-wise: it's unfortunate but i am, indeed, in love. also i need a fucking job. ♥!!

rainbows.

i like this picture very very very much, thought i would share. also, my boyfriend told me that yesterday he told his mum he is probably going to eventually marry me. im like, in awe. i'm actually speechless. wow. hope your lives arent as whacked out as mine at the moment LOL. xx.

DRAMA, GOSS AND LOVE.

okay so once upon a time, at the start of the year, the girls i was friends with at the time "dumped" me cause the guy they were all ga-ga over, and i had a thing at camp. to paint the picture, he's the most popular guy at school (in the literal sense), he's an athlete (killer bod), and girls will line up after he's done a performance to get a photo of him (a lot of the time he grabs me to be in photos with him, cute!) he played the piano and sang to me (all my life - kci & jojo), he has an a-m-a-z-i-n-n-g voice, and we did a duet at the talent night and cuddled at the movie night. we then became really close friends, but since its always been that awkward in-between kind of friends -- and yeah. any way, two weeks past and after the holidays the girls found out i had a boyfriend (same boyfriend i have now), who is half australian and half cookislander, (makes him hawt stuff!) and when i showed them pictures they simply were in shock. he used to play for the same rugby team as the group of boys this prettykid is the leader of, who are all islander and sexy as bro! anyway, then the bitchiness arrived and from there it was all down hill. SO, i was talking to this prettykid last night, turns out he needs a lift to the prom: which means i will rock up with two sexy boys in suits, to the formal in a brand new WRXSTI. in front of the girls who i used to be friends with. in a hot dress. just thought i'd share the goss ♥ hahahah. im soo effing excited. :) oh and also he's coming clubbing. :)

I do not understand guitar hero. :(

hi party people! (special hello's to my new followers!) whats up. :) i just got back from a house party in this massive, massive house that had a bunny rabbit hopping around. was pretty cool, but i fell asleep and when i woke up people were playing guitar hero and talking about placentas. ew. it was a really weird party, but the music was crap so like, yeah. and boyfie wasnt there, ew. anyway, i PROMISE i will post pictures of my formal dress as soon as i find the cord for my cameraaa :) dress is not that great but i love love love it. my shoes are death on heels. :D i hope your weekends are fantasticly amazingly super super duper awesome! xxxx.

I'M GOING TO PROM :)

i have sooo much to do! its on this thursday! :D i'm sooo excited and happy that i get to go! hee :) who wants to see my outfit? :D thanks for commenting! :D

Bad Luck is my new Best Friend.

sorry i havent posted lately, bad luck is following me everywhere, and today i feel like crap. boyfriends house and watch movies and be fat this afternoon. till he gets home, i'm sweeping, vaccuuming and mopping the whole house. and re-arranging my room. and putting on new bedsheets. and putting a new feature thing in my room. taking down the photos, corkboards etc. i've realised that i'm sacrificing a lot lately. sleep is one, but another that is killing me, is for example, that i'm not going to my formal (prom) so that i can use the money to go to a church thing - so i've spent the last day or so detaching myself from my emotions.

btw LOL, my dog is freaking out at the thunder storm on right now, she's on my lap shaking like a leaf. if she was a child i'd tell her it's God getting was cause she killed those birds. LOL i'm going to be a terrible parent. hahahah. anyway, eye candy always makes me feel better so i hope you people will too :)

xxxx.

WHAT THE EFF IS WRONG WITH YOU. SERIOUSLY, I DONT EVEN GET WHAT YOURE SAYING HALF THE TIME. YOU'RE SO MOODY, I HATE YOU.

dear lord, why does he persist to try my patience so? amen.

shit is shit with my boyfriend. i kind of dont care though, it's weird, but i think i'm just over the whole "our relationship is perfect" thing and i'm just getting on with it. also my dog keeps killing pretty birds, and its starting to piss me off. cant blame her though because its in her nature and all that jazz, but still, the hell man.

YAMAYZING.

i tried to break up with him tonight. his response: whatever reason you're trying to do this for, it's not good enough. we are not breaking up. thats what he said. and then - oh and then, he kissed me. he did it, he did something amazing. :) and my friend didnt even text him :) my weird feelings can fuck themselves. i love him, i love him. hello btw :) its raining here, but its warm. :) is it sunny where you are?

xxxxx.

delicious ambiguity

nothing's happened so far today. i just woke up with a headache because i fell asleep with my head on my phone. i wasnt talking on it or anything, it just ended up there. i think because i miss my boyfriend, i wanted to text him last night to tell him to come over in the morning, but i fell asleep. i'm kind of glad i did though, because if i had texted him and he didnt come, i wouldve been shattered. i miss him. i'll probably see him tonight. there's a church dance, only thing is that if he doesnt go, i'll end up going with this guy he hates who's my friend (i dont really like him either). awkward. the drive in was amazing, twilight was amazing: but taylor lautner is so much more than beyond amazing. have you seeen his body?! hello! i'm just glad my boyfriend didnt go last night to see me drool all over myself for this guy. LOL! honestly though, last night would have been so much better with him there. :( I MISS HIM, and yes i said it again. and for those wondering why the fuck i talk about my boyfriend so much is because he's so much so a part of my life that when he's not there for a while it freaks me out. he actually told me that he plans to marry me this one time we were at the hairdresser and i was looking at a bridal magazine. but he has shit to do first. it's complicated. also, and more importantly - he's my best friend. i can tell him everything (doesnt mean i do, remember i'm an incredibly emotionally closed off person).

the thing is though - i think i'm falling out of love with him and its scaring the hell out of me. hmm. i think i'm going to text my friend to tell her to text him and get him to do something awesome. like a summersault. :)

he is amazing, but he's just so damn stupid. nothing so far has happened today.

BTWOMFGWTFBBQFTW6OFOLLOWERSLOL.

romeo, save me.

i've realised i'm upset because i put my boyfriend before a lot of things. things like money, time, sleep, even health. mostly its because i never have the heart to say no. and things lately have been fucking up because of him. i wouldnt care, but when i'm upset because shit is fucked, he has nothing to say. i know he cares but, he just says nothing. i've decided to take a break, just without him knowing cause every other of the a thousant other times i've tried to go on a break he freaks out and is at my house all the time. lol, cutie. ♥ anyway, turns out my interview wasn't today, it was tuesday next week so i'm very relieved atm. i'm watching twilight for the first time tonight at home with charlotte. :) and at midnight we're going to the drive in with a group of 20, and watching new moon. charlotte says it will be the most exciting night of my life, hahah. it'll be good to stay away from boyfriend for a while, i can see it now.

even though i really do need space, i secretly want him to do something amazing.

omg my boyfriend & i are SO chummy, its rediculous.

HE TRICKED ME TODAY! said he wasnt coming

to my house after work lol! but then he did and

i ran outside and hugged him like i hadnt seen him

for ages, and then he picked me up,

took me inside, dropped me on the couch

and kissed me all over my face!

if i could write down the noise for that funny cat noise

that cats make when a little kid pulls their tail, i totally would.

just because grrrrr, just wouldnt be right. :(

HAHAHAHAHAH.

i'm very happy today. yaknow that song "everything is gay"

that that kid sings on youtube? with the guitar?

my life is kinda like that, but still it's awful!

becuase of some unknown reason

i feel terribly optimistic. :D

xxxx.

HE IS SO AMAZING.

guh, he really is.

anyway after lol-ing about what fenia and that said

on my last post about my boyfriend's brother being

amazing-looking and such, i got inspired to photograph my boyfriend

and i'm doing so tomorrow, and so hopefully

you guys will have a better understanding

of what i'm working with here LOLOL

how are we all? i hope you're doing fine

and that raindrops on your head

(that make your straightenned hair frizzy)

are not tearing you down :D

as for me, i had the giggles today! really badly!

i couldnt stop bahahah :) it was fun

and i also ate a nashi pear :D

hooray!

xxxx.

also, if it makes you feel better,

he really isnt that amazing.

i think i just think so cause we are in love ♥

trust in _____.

my boyfriend was really upset today, it kind of disturbed me, because i realised how shut off i can be. he was upset because he says i open up to other people

more than him and he doesnt know wha

to do anymore :( it was soo sweet but it was

also really really sadddd :(

on a positive note

I'M FREE!

FREE, I TELL YOU! FREEEEE!!!!

did my last exam today, & naaailleeeddd it!

and also the exam lady said that she

had never seen anyone write as much as me

^__^ hooray!

anyway with the whole omgomg stress thing

with not knowing what to do career-wise

i've decided i'm going to let God, fate or whatever it is

that decides your circumstances decide for me

and i'm just gonna live everyday like whatever :)

and i'm going to trust my boyfriend more

and talk to him because i didnt realize it upset him that much

which will be hard cause talking-out feelings

isnt exactly a skill i possess. i might write letters

to my boyfriend every now and then or something

LOL

should be good, although i dont

know how long i'll last.

hope you are all wonderful, happy and beautiful

(on the inside).

xxxx.

EFFYEAH!

tomorrow is my LAST exam ever for highschool

and i got applications and interviews

for teriary studies today, which made me feel

not-so-bad about being unproductive :)

i should really go study,

weird -- i actually WANT to! :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

xxxx.

not having a job is really depressing me.

seriously, my friend bought an outfit yesterday

and i came home and out of nowhere i started

crying like i've never cried before!

it was soooo weird but it was also because

my boyfriend kept asking what was wrong. i hate that!

I NEED A JOB AND I NEED MONEY.

i wanna buy clothes for me and random shit

for my boyfriend and presents at christmas

and op shop things and that! i even actually

want to pay tithing! or at least be able to! argh!

plus i want to get out of this f*cking house.

its driving me nuts. everything is!!

either way though i'm not emo or anything

i'm still happy for what i have, i just want a job.

& my hair is growing! yay!

its funny how things like clothes can depress you

i'm such an ungrateful bitch LOLOL

ohwell :) hope you are all well and lovely.

xxxx.

friends.

are awesome. no joke.

i hope you are working to live

and not living to work :)

xxxx.