i'm pretty sure i'm about to cut my own fringe. pray for me! the beach party's tonight and i can not wait, hopefully it will be awesome. the rest of the weekend shall be spontaneous because i have no idea what we're doing. plans for weekend anyone? btw lol i love this picture LOL. lol. LOL. bahah, lol. lolling. LOLlies. LOLLERSKATES lol. okay i should go cut my fringe.

make me up.

make up for formal/prom: darkdarkdark eyes, with glittery outsides, but rly fine so you can only see it in certain light, and very light lips etc. hee-hee! :D hair will be awesome i think i've got it figured. we're going clubbing afterwards! at my fav club for thursdays! still dont have a hot ride but i think thats okay :D boyfriend will be hot, HOT! :) love you all thanks for the comments and suggestions for hair! very very much appreciated~ youu have nooo idea :D (btw almost 80 followers ftw!!) xxxx.

I do not understand guitar hero. :(

hi party people! (special hello's to my new followers!) whats up. :) i just got back from a house party in this massive, massive house that had a bunny rabbit hopping around. was pretty cool, but i fell asleep and when i woke up people were playing guitar hero and talking about placentas. ew. it was a really weird party, but the music was crap so like, yeah. and boyfie wasnt there, ew. anyway, i PROMISE i will post pictures of my formal dress as soon as i find the cord for my cameraaa :) dress is not that great but i love love love it. my shoes are death on heels. :D i hope your weekends are fantasticly amazingly super super duper awesome! xxxx.

I'M GOING TO PROM :)

i have sooo much to do! its on this thursday! :D i'm sooo excited and happy that i get to go! hee :) who wants to see my outfit? :D thanks for commenting! :D

WHAT THE EFF IS WRONG WITH YOU. SERIOUSLY, I DONT EVEN GET WHAT YOURE SAYING HALF THE TIME. YOU'RE SO MOODY, I HATE YOU.

dear lord, why does he persist to try my patience so? amen.

shit is shit with my boyfriend. i kind of dont care though, it's weird, but i think i'm just over the whole "our relationship is perfect" thing and i'm just getting on with it. also my dog keeps killing pretty birds, and its starting to piss me off. cant blame her though because its in her nature and all that jazz, but still, the hell man.

This is not my jam.

went to an 18th last night. twas a massive house party and e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e was there :) didnt go to church today, and i totally should have! if i had woken up i wouldve gone, as i never pass up the opportunity to see him in a suit lol :) i hope you are having a lovely weekend :) it's still raining.

yo!

33/91 degrees today.

i had a shit morning, the shittest morning in a while. so i went shopping, and i bought 2 bras and 7 pairs of new undies. was happy until i burnt my hand on a 527 degree metal thing. it hurts so bad. stuff with my boyfriend is uncontrollably bad. its gotten to the point that i cant even talk about it because it just makes me really upset. its not even that bad, he just really has not stepped up at all. he's not cheating on me or anything but he's just like, let down after let down i was so upset today, and i asked him to come to mine after work because i desperately needed to talk to him. he didnt come. i called him after like 6 hours, because i couldnt stop crying. and i know no ones perfect but c'mon. take the conversation we had on the phone:

mee: (babbling on about how much my hand is in excrutiating pain).

*awkward silence*

him: um, okay. i need to get up early is there anything important you need to say?

i started crying and hung up. i continued to cry for a half hour or so. i've had a stressful week. month. four months. yep. four months. i know i'll be okay though. wannaknow why? i'm a ninja. 'nuff said. hope you're better than me.

i'm not particularly happy today, but i'm not particularly sad either, its really weird! i think its because my daddy yelled at me this morning for not cleaning something my sister made a mess of, but then three scottish men came to my house and put insulation in the roof above my room so i wouldnt be cold anymore. and they did it for free :) thanks for the comments on the last post, and yes my boyfriend is a little bit cool. shall i tell you stories about the beginning of our romance? hua-cha! i need to figure out what's for dinner tonight~ hope you are smiling :)

xxxx.

omg my boyfriend & i are SO chummy, its rediculous.

HE TRICKED ME TODAY! said he wasnt coming

to my house after work lol! but then he did and

i ran outside and hugged him like i hadnt seen him

for ages, and then he picked me up,

took me inside, dropped me on the couch

and kissed me all over my face!

if i could write down the noise for that funny cat noise

that cats make when a little kid pulls their tail, i totally would.

just because grrrrr, just wouldnt be right. :(

HAHAHAHAHAH.

i'm very happy today. yaknow that song "everything is gay"

that that kid sings on youtube? with the guitar?

my life is kinda like that, but still it's awful!

becuase of some unknown reason

i feel terribly optimistic. :D

xxxx.

photo by me :)

just thought i'd share something of my own guy is boyfriends little brother :) took it yesterday at their house, xxxx.

trust in _____.

my boyfriend was really upset today, it kind of disturbed me, because i realised how shut off i can be. he was upset because he says i open up to other people

more than him and he doesnt know wha

to do anymore :( it was soo sweet but it was

also really really sadddd :(

on a positive note

I'M FREE!

FREE, I TELL YOU! FREEEEE!!!!

did my last exam today, & naaailleeeddd it!

and also the exam lady said that she

had never seen anyone write as much as me

^__^ hooray!

anyway with the whole omgomg stress thing

with not knowing what to do career-wise

i've decided i'm going to let God, fate or whatever it is

that decides your circumstances decide for me

and i'm just gonna live everyday like whatever :)

and i'm going to trust my boyfriend more

and talk to him because i didnt realize it upset him that much

which will be hard cause talking-out feelings

isnt exactly a skill i possess. i might write letters

to my boyfriend every now and then or something

LOL

should be good, although i dont

know how long i'll last.

hope you are all wonderful, happy and beautiful

(on the inside).

xxxx.

EFFYEAH!

tomorrow is my LAST exam ever for highschool

and i got applications and interviews

for teriary studies today, which made me feel

not-so-bad about being unproductive :)

i should really go study,

weird -- i actually WANT to! :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

xxxx.

not having a job is really depressing me.

seriously, my friend bought an outfit yesterday

and i came home and out of nowhere i started

crying like i've never cried before!

it was soooo weird but it was also because

my boyfriend kept asking what was wrong. i hate that!

I NEED A JOB AND I NEED MONEY.

i wanna buy clothes for me and random shit

for my boyfriend and presents at christmas

and op shop things and that! i even actually

want to pay tithing! or at least be able to! argh!

plus i want to get out of this f*cking house.

its driving me nuts. everything is!!

either way though i'm not emo or anything

i'm still happy for what i have, i just want a job.

& my hair is growing! yay!

its funny how things like clothes can depress you

i'm such an ungrateful bitch LOLOL

ohwell :) hope you are all well and lovely.

xxxx.

friends.

are awesome. no joke.

i hope you are working to live

and not living to work :)

xxxx.

BEACHED AS BRO.

HERRO :) as you may know, the weather here is fucked. it will rain in the afternoon, thunderstorm at night and be like 30 degrees the next day (celcius) AND, thanks to the big fat hole in the o-zone layer our UV exposure is worse than all of youse other guys (so blerh!!) summer's pretty much officially here (even though its still technically spring so yesterday we hit the beach and spent most of the day eating icecream and at the beach with tyron ♥ which was cute we went to watch a movie at a friends, got bored so we (about 25 of us) walked down

to the beach at about 9pm & it was beautiful. tyron was being all romantic, and we were like swimming in the water but like i was on his lap and he was swaying back and forth :) and i was like "we need music!" and he's like "just listen to the ocean :)" and i was all like awwww, but secretly laughing inside and tyron and i stayed behind and decided it would be fun to go swimming naked and it totally was! but anyways, hope your weekends were awesome as was mine. :) hitting the beach again tomorrow with the sole purpose of tanning :) because i am latin american (i.e. dark?!) but right now, my boyfriend who is half islander, half white australian is darker than me. and i'm not happy about it. LOLLL happy blogging!

xxxx.

THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL.

i think i need a break. not from anything specific though,

except for maybe my pesimistic attitude that i seem to have adopted over the past couple of days. ♥

its hard to be optimistic sometimes, but i think once you

re-focus, and think of nothing else BUT your priorities

optimism catches up on you. and i hope it does :)

although, right now it's all curiosity's fault.

if it wasn't for you my friend, i wouldnt be so caught up in the:

OMG WHO AM I. WHAT AM I GOING TO BE? AM I GOING TO BE POOR OR RICH, WHO WILL WANT TO MARRY ME, ARE THESE THE BEST OF MY YEARS?! WHY THE HELL IS THIS THE WAY IT IS? WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO STUDY? WHY IS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE THAT? WHY ARE MY THIGHS SO BIG? WHY CANT I BE LIKE HER? WHY ISNT MY HAIR GROWING FASTER?? Kind of shit.

you suck.

thanks for your comments, you are lovely.

xxxx.

life is insane.

mmm/bh.

i am terrified.

im just glad i have you.

kissy kissy :)

fridayi'minlove.

haha! so the new rule in the boyfriend's house (coming home straight after work) ..totally FAILED. he came home to me last night!

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! >:) whuaha!! stupid mrs. lady, i'm like two up now, how marvellous.

i've also decided that my boyfriend and i

shall visit the zoo (: to see the long nosed chinese animal i forget what they're called, but get this i rememeber exactly where they are in the zoo. weirdddddd.

i'm sooo nervous about the interview today and i have another one tomorrow i dont think i want to go though! errrkk! and my nails are painted black they might think i'm emo ewwwwwwwwwwwwWwWwww.

(meliencuarto-fran)

btw FUCK i am so fucking jealous of this chicks hair she should have a god damn lisence for this 'do look at it its so fucking gorgeous what the hell it makes me angry looking at it because my hair is unfortunately not identical to hers. grr. btw i keep sneezing how annoying.

i hope your days are lovely ♥

xxxx.

F*CK!

her hand's ugly (: but i like her hair

(nancy, tryon after church bbq)

coming my house babe?

yeah for sure :)

on the way there:

*ring ring!*

i have to go home.

your mum??

..yeah, i'm sorry babe.

(in my head) fuck!

today was both complicated and elaborate.

i found out how much my boyfriend actually loves me.

things were said such as "i really do not want to lose you,"

"i'm scared of being without you." and

"dont ever leave. i dont want you to go." were said;

and life briefly resembled the budget video clip

off a soundtrack song of a cheap romantic chick flick

(where in the end it's shit cause theyre

both ugly. except my boyfriend's hot.)

i wont bother explaining everything i currently have no idea what's going on. slightly reminds me of war:

no deaths, no guns, no tanks though. nothing flash.

just pure amunition (and ofcourse, politics).

kisses, hugs, and uncomfortable

touchies for you all :D *winkwink*

♥ thanks for commenting!

nancy 1 - 1 big mama

relief.

zarajay, spent eight point five hours straight at the hosptial with boyfriend's mum. never thought just sitting there could be so tiring, but she's getting better ♥ hope you all are fine & dandy. btw, hello to followers old & new.

you should know that knowing that there was

thirteen of you ♥ totally made me smile :)

x.