DRAMA, GOSS AND LOVE.

okay so once upon a time, at the start of the year, the girls i was friends with at the time "dumped" me cause the guy they were all ga-ga over, and i had a thing at camp. to paint the picture, he's the most popular guy at school (in the literal sense), he's an athlete (killer bod), and girls will line up after he's done a performance to get a photo of him (a lot of the time he grabs me to be in photos with him, cute!) he played the piano and sang to me (all my life - kci & jojo), he has an a-m-a-z-i-n-n-g voice, and we did a duet at the talent night and cuddled at the movie night. we then became really close friends, but since its always been that awkward in-between kind of friends -- and yeah. any way, two weeks past and after the holidays the girls found out i had a boyfriend (same boyfriend i have now), who is half australian and half cookislander, (makes him hawt stuff!) and when i showed them pictures they simply were in shock. he used to play for the same rugby team as the group of boys this prettykid is the leader of, who are all islander and sexy as bro! anyway, then the bitchiness arrived and from there it was all down hill. SO, i was talking to this prettykid last night, turns out he needs a lift to the prom: which means i will rock up with two sexy boys in suits, to the formal in a brand new WRXSTI. in front of the girls who i used to be friends with. in a hot dress. just thought i'd share the goss ♥ hahahah. im soo effing excited. :) oh and also he's coming clubbing. :)

I do not understand guitar hero. :(

hi party people! (special hello's to my new followers!) whats up. :) i just got back from a house party in this massive, massive house that had a bunny rabbit hopping around. was pretty cool, but i fell asleep and when i woke up people were playing guitar hero and talking about placentas. ew. it was a really weird party, but the music was crap so like, yeah. and boyfie wasnt there, ew. anyway, i PROMISE i will post pictures of my formal dress as soon as i find the cord for my cameraaa :) dress is not that great but i love love love it. my shoes are death on heels. :D i hope your weekends are fantasticly amazingly super super duper awesome! xxxx.

romeo, save me.

i've realised i'm upset because i put my boyfriend before a lot of things. things like money, time, sleep, even health. mostly its because i never have the heart to say no. and things lately have been fucking up because of him. i wouldnt care, but when i'm upset because shit is fucked, he has nothing to say. i know he cares but, he just says nothing. i've decided to take a break, just without him knowing cause every other of the a thousant other times i've tried to go on a break he freaks out and is at my house all the time. lol, cutie. ♥ anyway, turns out my interview wasn't today, it was tuesday next week so i'm very relieved atm. i'm watching twilight for the first time tonight at home with charlotte. :) and at midnight we're going to the drive in with a group of 20, and watching new moon. charlotte says it will be the most exciting night of my life, hahah. it'll be good to stay away from boyfriend for a while, i can see it now.

even though i really do need space, i secretly want him to do something amazing.

yo!

33/91 degrees today.

i had a shit morning, the shittest morning in a while. so i went shopping, and i bought 2 bras and 7 pairs of new undies. was happy until i burnt my hand on a 527 degree metal thing. it hurts so bad. stuff with my boyfriend is uncontrollably bad. its gotten to the point that i cant even talk about it because it just makes me really upset. its not even that bad, he just really has not stepped up at all. he's not cheating on me or anything but he's just like, let down after let down i was so upset today, and i asked him to come to mine after work because i desperately needed to talk to him. he didnt come. i called him after like 6 hours, because i couldnt stop crying. and i know no ones perfect but c'mon. take the conversation we had on the phone:

mee: (babbling on about how much my hand is in excrutiating pain).

*awkward silence*

him: um, okay. i need to get up early is there anything important you need to say?

i started crying and hung up. i continued to cry for a half hour or so. i've had a stressful week. month. four months. yep. four months. i know i'll be okay though. wannaknow why? i'm a ninja. 'nuff said. hope you're better than me.

trust in _____.

my boyfriend was really upset today, it kind of disturbed me, because i realised how shut off i can be. he was upset because he says i open up to other people

more than him and he doesnt know wha

to do anymore :( it was soo sweet but it was

also really really sadddd :(

on a positive note

I'M FREE!

FREE, I TELL YOU! FREEEEE!!!!

did my last exam today, & naaailleeeddd it!

and also the exam lady said that she

had never seen anyone write as much as me

^__^ hooray!

anyway with the whole omgomg stress thing

with not knowing what to do career-wise

i've decided i'm going to let God, fate or whatever it is

that decides your circumstances decide for me

and i'm just gonna live everyday like whatever :)

and i'm going to trust my boyfriend more

and talk to him because i didnt realize it upset him that much

which will be hard cause talking-out feelings

isnt exactly a skill i possess. i might write letters

to my boyfriend every now and then or something

LOL

should be good, although i dont

know how long i'll last.

hope you are all wonderful, happy and beautiful

(on the inside).

xxxx.

not having a job is really depressing me.

seriously, my friend bought an outfit yesterday

and i came home and out of nowhere i started

crying like i've never cried before!

it was soooo weird but it was also because

my boyfriend kept asking what was wrong. i hate that!

I NEED A JOB AND I NEED MONEY.

i wanna buy clothes for me and random shit

for my boyfriend and presents at christmas

and op shop things and that! i even actually

want to pay tithing! or at least be able to! argh!

plus i want to get out of this f*cking house.

its driving me nuts. everything is!!

either way though i'm not emo or anything

i'm still happy for what i have, i just want a job.

& my hair is growing! yay!

its funny how things like clothes can depress you

i'm such an ungrateful bitch LOLOL

ohwell :) hope you are all well and lovely.

xxxx.

friends.

are awesome. no joke.

i hope you are working to live

and not living to work :)

xxxx.

YOU MAKE ME SO MAD!!

but then again, so does everything else.

i (do not) feel fan-fucking-tastic.

as you may be able to tell,

my head is all over the place right now.

i'm pissed off to the max,

and i am also crazy!

*throws arms in the air*

HALLA-BA-LOO!!! :D

i need a job.

i need a job.

i need a job.

i need a job.

why?

JOB = PAY

PAY = MONEY

MONEY = RENT

RENT = NEW HOME.

ALL OF THIS = FREEDOM FROM OPRESSION. :)

hooray.

i hope your life

is better than mine was today.

i fell backwards at the front door,

i was trying to lift up my boyfriend

how he lifts me up when i'm upset

and he wants to make me feel better.

was shit cause it hurt

but it was kinda cute i guess.

so anyway now my elbow hurts.

and i think its bedtime right about now.

xxxx.

p.s. that guy up top is the finest damn thing i ever did see in all my years.

THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL.

i think i need a break. not from anything specific though,

except for maybe my pesimistic attitude that i seem to have adopted over the past couple of days. ♥

its hard to be optimistic sometimes, but i think once you

re-focus, and think of nothing else BUT your priorities

optimism catches up on you. and i hope it does :)

although, right now it's all curiosity's fault.

if it wasn't for you my friend, i wouldnt be so caught up in the:

OMG WHO AM I. WHAT AM I GOING TO BE? AM I GOING TO BE POOR OR RICH, WHO WILL WANT TO MARRY ME, ARE THESE THE BEST OF MY YEARS?! WHY THE HELL IS THIS THE WAY IT IS? WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO STUDY? WHY IS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE THAT? WHY ARE MY THIGHS SO BIG? WHY CANT I BE LIKE HER? WHY ISNT MY HAIR GROWING FASTER?? Kind of shit.

you suck.

thanks for your comments, you are lovely.

xxxx.

spoonful of sugar.

whi.

job interviews suck. just as much as life does for me right now. (brb) gone beach. *thumbs up.*

kissy kissy :)

fridayi'minlove.

haha! so the new rule in the boyfriend's house (coming home straight after work) ..totally FAILED. he came home to me last night!

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! >:) whuaha!! stupid mrs. lady, i'm like two up now, how marvellous.

i've also decided that my boyfriend and i

shall visit the zoo (: to see the long nosed chinese animal i forget what they're called, but get this i rememeber exactly where they are in the zoo. weirdddddd.

i'm sooo nervous about the interview today and i have another one tomorrow i dont think i want to go though! errrkk! and my nails are painted black they might think i'm emo ewwwwwwwwwwwwWwWwww.

(meliencuarto-fran)

btw FUCK i am so fucking jealous of this chicks hair she should have a god damn lisence for this 'do look at it its so fucking gorgeous what the hell it makes me angry looking at it because my hair is unfortunately not identical to hers. grr. btw i keep sneezing how annoying.

i hope your days are lovely ♥

xxxx.

F*CK!

her hand's ugly (: but i like her hair

(nancy, tryon after church bbq)

coming my house babe?

yeah for sure :)

on the way there:

*ring ring!*

i have to go home.

your mum??

..yeah, i'm sorry babe.

(in my head) fuck!

today was both complicated and elaborate.

i found out how much my boyfriend actually loves me.

things were said such as "i really do not want to lose you,"

"i'm scared of being without you." and

"dont ever leave. i dont want you to go." were said;

and life briefly resembled the budget video clip

off a soundtrack song of a cheap romantic chick flick

(where in the end it's shit cause theyre

both ugly. except my boyfriend's hot.)

i wont bother explaining everything i currently have no idea what's going on. slightly reminds me of war:

no deaths, no guns, no tanks though. nothing flash.

just pure amunition (and ofcourse, politics).

kisses, hugs, and uncomfortable

touchies for you all :D *winkwink*

♥ thanks for commenting!

nancy 1 - 1 big mama

& something for the boy.

audfaux

i'd quite like to buy sunglasses and a jumper like this for mr. crtl+♥.

and

hello to my three new followers, you are lovely.

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helloo, new followers.

as below (lookbook).

i fell on the road today infront of a car. minor injuries, major ouch. hopefully this means no school tomorrow!

i effing love her skirt fabric.

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