okay so once upon a time, at the start of the year, the girls i was friends with at the time "dumped" me cause the guy they were all ga-ga over, and i had a thing at camp. to paint the picture, he's the most popular guy at school (in the literal sense), he's an athlete (killer bod), and girls will line up after he's done a performance to get a photo of him (a lot of the time he grabs me to be in photos with him, cute!) he played the piano and sang to me (all my life - kci & jojo), he has an a-m-a-z-i-n-n-g voice, and we did a duet at the talent night and cuddled at the movie night. we then became really close friends, but since its always been that awkward in-between kind of friends -- and yeah. any way, two weeks past and after the holidays the girls found out i had a boyfriend (same boyfriend i have now), who is half australian and half cookislander, (makes him hawt stuff!) and when i showed them pictures they simply were in shock. he used to play for the same rugby team as the group of boys this prettykid is the leader of, who are all islander and sexy as bro! anyway, then the bitchiness arrived and from there it was all down hill. SO, i was talking to this prettykid last night, turns out he needs a lift to the prom: which means i will rock up with two sexy boys in suits, to the formal in a brand new WRXSTI. in front of the girls who i used to be friends with. in a hot dress. just thought i'd share the goss ♥ hahahah. im soo effing excited. :) oh and also he's coming clubbing. :)
sorry i havent posted lately, bad luck is following me everywhere, and today i feel like crap. boyfriends house and watch movies and be fat this afternoon. till he gets home, i'm sweeping, vaccuuming and mopping the whole house. and re-arranging my room. and putting on new bedsheets. and putting a new feature thing in my room. taking down the photos, corkboards etc. i've realised that i'm sacrificing a lot lately. sleep is one, but another that is killing me, is for example, that i'm not going to my formal (prom) so that i can use the money to go to a church thing - so i've spent the last day or so detaching myself from my emotions. 
i tried to break up with him tonight. his response: whatever reason you're trying to do this for, it's not good enough. we are not breaking up. thats what he said. and then - oh and then, he kissed me. he did it, he did something amazing. :) and my friend didnt even text him :) my weird feelings can fuck themselves. i love him, i love him. hello btw :) its raining here, but its warm. :) is it sunny where you are?
nothing's happened so far today. i just woke up with a headache because i fell asleep with my head on my phone. i wasnt talking on it or anything, it just ended up there. i think because i miss my boyfriend, i wanted to text him last night to tell him to come over in the morning, but i fell asleep. i'm kind of glad i did though, because if i had texted him and he didnt come, i wouldve been shattered. i miss him.
i'll probably see him tonight. there's a church dance, only thing is that if he doesnt go, i'll end up going with this guy he hates who's my friend (i dont really like him either). awkward.
the drive in was amazing, twilight was amazing: but taylor lautner is so much more than beyond amazing. have you seeen his body?! hello! i'm just glad my boyfriend didnt go last night to see me drool all over myself for this guy. LOL! honestly though, last night would have been so much better with him there. :(
I MISS HIM, and yes i said it again. and for those wondering why the fuck i talk about my boyfriend so much is because he's so much so a part of my life that when he's not there for a while it freaks me out. he actually told me that he plans to marry me this one time we were at the hairdresser and i was looking at a bridal magazine. but he has shit to do first. it's complicated. also, and more importantly - he's my best friend. i can tell him everything (doesnt mean i do, remember i'm an incredibly emotionally closed off person).
