I do not understand guitar hero. :(

hi party people! (special hello's to my new followers!) whats up. :) i just got back from a house party in this massive, massive house that had a bunny rabbit hopping around. was pretty cool, but i fell asleep and when i woke up people were playing guitar hero and talking about placentas. ew. it was a really weird party, but the music was crap so like, yeah. and boyfie wasnt there, ew. anyway, i PROMISE i will post pictures of my formal dress as soon as i find the cord for my cameraaa :) dress is not that great but i love love love it. my shoes are death on heels. :D i hope your weekends are fantasticly amazingly super super duper awesome! xxxx.

I'M GOING TO PROM :)

i have sooo much to do! its on this thursday! :D i'm sooo excited and happy that i get to go! hee :) who wants to see my outfit? :D thanks for commenting! :D

WHAT THE EFF IS WRONG WITH YOU. SERIOUSLY, I DONT EVEN GET WHAT YOURE SAYING HALF THE TIME. YOU'RE SO MOODY, I HATE YOU.

dear lord, why does he persist to try my patience so? amen.

shit is shit with my boyfriend. i kind of dont care though, it's weird, but i think i'm just over the whole "our relationship is perfect" thing and i'm just getting on with it. also my dog keeps killing pretty birds, and its starting to piss me off. cant blame her though because its in her nature and all that jazz, but still, the hell man.

This is not my jam.

went to an 18th last night. twas a massive house party and e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e was there :) didnt go to church today, and i totally should have! if i had woken up i wouldve gone, as i never pass up the opportunity to see him in a suit lol :) i hope you are having a lovely weekend :) it's still raining.

delicious ambiguity

nothing's happened so far today. i just woke up with a headache because i fell asleep with my head on my phone. i wasnt talking on it or anything, it just ended up there. i think because i miss my boyfriend, i wanted to text him last night to tell him to come over in the morning, but i fell asleep. i'm kind of glad i did though, because if i had texted him and he didnt come, i wouldve been shattered. i miss him. i'll probably see him tonight. there's a church dance, only thing is that if he doesnt go, i'll end up going with this guy he hates who's my friend (i dont really like him either). awkward. the drive in was amazing, twilight was amazing: but taylor lautner is so much more than beyond amazing. have you seeen his body?! hello! i'm just glad my boyfriend didnt go last night to see me drool all over myself for this guy. LOL! honestly though, last night would have been so much better with him there. :( I MISS HIM, and yes i said it again. and for those wondering why the fuck i talk about my boyfriend so much is because he's so much so a part of my life that when he's not there for a while it freaks me out. he actually told me that he plans to marry me this one time we were at the hairdresser and i was looking at a bridal magazine. but he has shit to do first. it's complicated. also, and more importantly - he's my best friend. i can tell him everything (doesnt mean i do, remember i'm an incredibly emotionally closed off person).

the thing is though - i think i'm falling out of love with him and its scaring the hell out of me. hmm. i think i'm going to text my friend to tell her to text him and get him to do something awesome. like a summersault. :)

he is amazing, but he's just so damn stupid. nothing so far has happened today.

BTWOMFGWTFBBQFTW6OFOLLOWERSLOL.

yo!

33/91 degrees today.

i had a shit morning, the shittest morning in a while. so i went shopping, and i bought 2 bras and 7 pairs of new undies. was happy until i burnt my hand on a 527 degree metal thing. it hurts so bad. stuff with my boyfriend is uncontrollably bad. its gotten to the point that i cant even talk about it because it just makes me really upset. its not even that bad, he just really has not stepped up at all. he's not cheating on me or anything but he's just like, let down after let down i was so upset today, and i asked him to come to mine after work because i desperately needed to talk to him. he didnt come. i called him after like 6 hours, because i couldnt stop crying. and i know no ones perfect but c'mon. take the conversation we had on the phone:

mee: (babbling on about how much my hand is in excrutiating pain).

*awkward silence*

him: um, okay. i need to get up early is there anything important you need to say?

i started crying and hung up. i continued to cry for a half hour or so. i've had a stressful week. month. four months. yep. four months. i know i'll be okay though. wannaknow why? i'm a ninja. 'nuff said. hope you're better than me.

photo by me :)

just thought i'd share something of my own guy is boyfriends little brother :) took it yesterday at their house, xxxx.

trust in _____.

my boyfriend was really upset today, it kind of disturbed me, because i realised how shut off i can be. he was upset because he says i open up to other people

more than him and he doesnt know wha

to do anymore :( it was soo sweet but it was

also really really sadddd :(

on a positive note

I'M FREE!

FREE, I TELL YOU! FREEEEE!!!!

did my last exam today, & naaailleeeddd it!

and also the exam lady said that she

had never seen anyone write as much as me

^__^ hooray!

anyway with the whole omgomg stress thing

with not knowing what to do career-wise

i've decided i'm going to let God, fate or whatever it is

that decides your circumstances decide for me

and i'm just gonna live everyday like whatever :)

and i'm going to trust my boyfriend more

and talk to him because i didnt realize it upset him that much

which will be hard cause talking-out feelings

isnt exactly a skill i possess. i might write letters

to my boyfriend every now and then or something

LOL

should be good, although i dont

know how long i'll last.

hope you are all wonderful, happy and beautiful

(on the inside).

xxxx.

EFFYEAH!

tomorrow is my LAST exam ever for highschool

and i got applications and interviews

for teriary studies today, which made me feel

not-so-bad about being unproductive :)

i should really go study,

weird -- i actually WANT to! :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

xxxx.