i havent posted for the last couple of days because i'm going through a lot right now. its not really bad, or good. it's just made me terribly pensive and its erraticated my behaviour. why, i really dont know.. but if you've ever anticipated a really big change in your life that you know will make everything different in ways that you can't control, i think you might get the jist of how i'm feeling. thoughts have been rushing around my head day and night and in the past 3 days i've had 2 hours sleep. i'm so tired. when it comes to times like this i usually remove myself emotionally and tactically approach how i think i am feeling and compare it with my view of what is factual. my mind is a mess - but just now, for no reason at all i somehow have found one thought that collectively describes the complex group of dilemas fighting for attention inside my head right now: yesterday, i was. today, i am. tomorrow, i will be. i really dont know why, but it's oddly comforting. i think it's interesting because the more i think about it - the more comforting it is. next time you're upset - think about it. it helps.
BTWOMFGBBQ! only one more follower and i'm at one hundred. just, like whoah!! mm! and also, today i found the best recipe for, and made the best self-saucing chocolate pudding! it was soo yummy and i loved it because you dont need actual chocolate which is awesome. why? because i hate making stuff that you have to especially go shopping for if you know what i mean. like i had everything i needed in my house already. lovez it! let me know if you wanna make it, it's super easy. but yeah anyway it was a road test for christmas dinner's desert! it's almost christmas!! ahhhh!!! freeaking out much! :D much love m'dears, xx.