This post is pretty angry and moderately deep. If you can't hack it, although it might sound bitchy, I really don't care. It's not my problem if you come across my blog thinking it's all lovely and flowers and fuck. My blog is about my life & life can sometimes be ugly as fuck - God's made sure I know that, especially lately. And I don't live for your damn approval :) Anyways, I have two questions - a short one and a long one. Question 1: How the crap is it that I turned my phone off, went to bed and woke up with 32 new messages? Seriously, dude. Question 2: What the crap is with people? Fuck, honestly some people just piss me off. People and their fucking ignorance. I'm having a baby out of wedlock because I refuse to marry my ex-boyfriend who raped me & fucked with my brain. No matter what anyone says or does, especially not him, will ever make me change my mind and convince me to marry someone who won't love me or my child the way they should - ever. How can it be better for a child to be born into wedlock when his father is capable of almost killing his mother, more than once and feeling he's done nothing wrong? And what the fuck is wrong with people who expect me to give him up for adoption? Are you fucking kidding me? Who could love a child more than their own mother? Seriously, what is the logic behind your shit? What, because a child can't have his father he should be deprived of his mother aswell? NO ONE WILL EVER give my son what I would. Whoever might be richer, more educated and more powerful, I might be young and I might still not have finished uni and have loads of cash but it's not a freggin job interview. It's my son's life. Sorry, but no. I'm having a baby by myself. I'm giving birth, and raising my son all on my own. I dont care how hard it is, or how long it takes me to fit into new routines, how tired I get, how much sleep I loose, how badly it affects my studies, but no. I'm having my son, getting my double-degree, and living happily ever after. No exceptions. Oh and hi :)